Hi! Still here, still sober! It is so funny how things have changed. In the beginning I wanted to blog everyday, sometimes more than once a day. I had so much inside my head that needed to come out. Now, it seems I just don't have the time or desire as I once did. I do think it's important though and know I'll enjoy having this record of my journey so I plan to continue even if it is much less frequently.
Things are going well as far as sobriety is concerned. I find it very easy most of the time and I rarely think about alcohol. I am however about to face probably the most difficult test yet. I have been invited to a birthday party tomorrow night. It is with a bunch of friends from my gym. I know most of them but haven't hung out with them socially for the most part.
I'm feeling lots of anticipatory anxiety about this event. I suppose I'm not sure exactly but from what I can tell there will be lots of drinking. I really want them to like me and I tend to be socially awkward. My first instinct would have always been to drink (a lot) in an attempt to fit in.
I really, really want to go. Not going is not an option. I can't hide away forever just because I'm sober. So I need to relearn how to function at an event like this without alcohol.
Some of the people who are going know that I've stopped drinking. In fact I know of at least one other sober person who will be there. Part of my worry though is how and what to tell people and what their reaction will be.
I know that a lot of the time the worry leading up to an event is much worse than how it actually turns out. I really hope this is the case. I know that I can get through this party without drinking I'm just not sure I can get through it without WANTING to drink.
