Thursday, May 28, 2015

Party Time

Hi!  Still here, still sober!  It is so funny how things have changed.  In the beginning I wanted to blog everyday, sometimes more than once a day.  I had so much inside my head that needed to come out.  Now, it seems I just don't have the time or desire as I once did.  I do think it's important though and know I'll enjoy having this record of my journey so I plan to continue even if it is much less frequently.

Things are going well as far as sobriety is concerned.  I find it very easy most of the time and I rarely think about alcohol.  I am however about to face probably the most difficult test yet.  I have been invited to a birthday party tomorrow night.  It is with a bunch of friends from my gym.  I know most of them but haven't hung out with them socially for the most part.  

I'm feeling lots of anticipatory anxiety about this event.  I suppose I'm not sure exactly but from what I can tell there will be lots of drinking.  I really want them to like me and I tend to be socially awkward.  My first instinct would have always been to drink (a lot) in an attempt to fit in.  

I really, really want to go.  Not going is not an option.  I can't hide away forever just because I'm sober.  So I need to relearn how to function at an event like this without alcohol. 

Some of the people who are going know that I've stopped drinking.  In fact I know of at least one other sober person who will be there.  Part of my worry though is how and what to tell people and what their reaction will be.

I know that a lot of the time the worry leading up to an event is much worse than how it actually turns out.  I really hope this is the case.  I know that I can get through this party without drinking I'm just not sure I can get through it without WANTING to drink.


  1. Just remember you and your sobriety are the most important thing! Don't worry if they like you or not be proud of who you are! 😀😀😀

    1. Hi! Thank you for visiting and leaving a comment! Such great advice :)

  2. Most people don't notice or care what others are doing unless it impacts them.
    You will be fine.

  3. Dear Sarah,
    Just remember all you have gained by not drinking.
    Once you order your favorite AF drink, you'll talk, laugh, and get home safe and sober!
    You can do this and have a nice time!

    1. Thank you Wendy for your never ending support...and what you said is exactly what happened!