I've got a couple of things to write about this morning. One is a very serious situation happening in my life and how I'm reacting to it and the other is a totally ridiculous reality TV show I'm watching. I'll start with the serious and end with the fluff.
A member of my husbands family is dealing with a very serious health issue and unfortunately I've not handled it very well. When it first happened I had my feelings hurt because I was not on the group text and did not find out right away. My husband was at work and he and I didn't communicate about it right away either. After a visit to the hospital (on which I should have accompanied him) my husband came home emotionally drained and instead of being supportive and helpful I was a huge baby because MY feelings were hurt. Needless to say that conversation didn't go well. The last thing I wanted to do is argue with my husband during a tragedy, yet that was what was happening.
I went to bed and told myself that I'd do better. I needed to realize that this was not about ME! The people who were on the group text were the ones who should have been. I really felt like I needed to grow up and act like an adult. That was two days ago and I do think yesterday was a bit better. I accompanied my husband to the hospital and then left to pick up the kids from school. He came home quite a bit later and was very upset. I wanted to know what was going on but I think the mistake I made was asking him the minute he walked in. He was visibly upset and I think waiting and letting him have time to decompress would have been better.
Again...today will be better. I think the most frustrating thing is knowing I'm acting in an unhealthy way but still doing it anyway. It can be so hard to change behavior.
Now for the fluff!
The fluff is The Bachelor...one of my favorite guilty pleasures! I love it and have watched for such a long time. There is so much alcohol on that show! I just watched the first episode of the season and there was one poor girl who drank so much she could hardly stand up (and she got a rose!) Of course I would never be on the show but if I was a can guarantee I would be the one who would have drank too much! Also they always drink wine on the dates. It is such a glamorous image of wine drinking. I would always wonder how they could do that for so many nights in a row without being hungover, how they could sip the wine so slowly. Now I know that they are most likely normal drinkers, it just seems so foreign to me and the way I use to drink.
So there it is. The bad (terrible things happen), the good (I'm aware of my issues and working on them), and the fluff (gotta love reality TV).