First thing I did was get on the scale. I knew pretty much exactly what it would say but I was disappointed anyway. I've done this yo-yo dieting thing enough times to know that losing weight takes time and yet I want immediate results. After all, I've been staying within my calorie limit for almost 2 weeks and I went to the gym 6 out out 7 days last week. Surely I'd have lost 15 pounds by now. Guess what...I haven't!
Then I went to they gym which was actually fun as I love my Sunday class. On the way home I found out that there was an extra ticket for the playoff football game. This should be exciting news, and it was. It's just that I knew it would be challenging as I'd just gone to a game a couple of weeks ago. We sit in a suite complete with a bar, bartender and food buffet. Last time I drank tea and ate the yummy food. This time I drank tea and ate 2 pickles! My attitude was terrible. I wanted to be holding a huge plastic cup filled with foamy beer.
I wanted to enjoy the game and I did somewhat but I was filled with negative thoughts. My own temper tantrum in my head. WHY CAN'T I HAVE DRINKS? Everyone else is having drinks. Why can't I be a normal drinker? Maybe this no drinking thing was a BAD idea. AND...this was MY idea...why exactly am I doing this to myself?
I also failed all day to have any civilized conversation with my husband. Instead, every word that came out of my mouth was either bitchy, accusatory or lecturing. YUCK!
I was even on the brink of tears a couple of times.
I've heard other sober people talk of this magical land where they LIKE being sober. People have said they enjoy social events sober and even have fun! I need a map to this magical place because I was nowhere near there yesterday.
Today will be better :)