I hate to keep talking about these shirts I've been selling but it's been such a fun project. It's kept me busy and connected me to new friends and old. After coordinating the order and helping make the shirts (over 40 of them), I was able to deliver them yesterday. We all wore them during my exercise class and it was such a fun day. I posted a picture on Facebook of all of us in our shirts and it has over 110 likes, the most ever! It's been exhausting but I've really had an adrenaline rush throuout. I've even taken orders for more!
It was a weird coincidence that just as I was gaining quite a few Facebook friends from people from the gym who wanted shirts, a few people from the BFB yahoo group wanted to be Facebook friends as well. So I have lots of new fitness friends and sober friends alike!
Then some friends from a different class wanted shirts and I had my shirt making friend design something but it seems more difficult this time as lots of people are having differing opinions on how it should look. I'm hoping I didn't bite off more than I can chew and nervous to please everyone.
Anyhow as I was feeling a bit frustrated with my shirt project this afternoon my husband came home from the doctor and asked me to download a book for him. Here's where things really went downhill. The book was about how to not walk on eggshells and get your life back when you live with someone with borderline personality disorder. So I sort of freaked out. I went in the other room and cried (while googling BPD). I took a bath and cried some more.
Don't get me wrong, I mean I know I'm a hot mess but it's a bit different to hear it from someone else. I feel very vulnerable to think about the discussion he must have had with his doctor to end up with that book recommendation.
In fact I feel vulnerable writing about this here but think it's good to get it off my chest. It felt good to cry although I feel a bit like I've been on a emotional roller coaster.
So tonight has been a shitty night and hoping tomorrow will be better. Although I'm suppose to meet with this group of friends at the gym in the morning to agree on shirts. Wish me luck!