Sunday, November 16, 2014

Day 29

Well I have over 400 page views!  It is such a strange feeling to know that people are reading this.  Even from other countries, that is very cool to me.  Still not very many comments though...so if you are reading this feel free to leave a comment!

All weekend I have had this recurring thought that sometimes I just plain "suck at life".  Small things overwhelm me and I am a complete control freak.  I am sure I am very hard to live with.  Wine was sure good for dulling the negative thoughts that run through my brain.  After a couple of glasses, nothing seemed overwhelming and I could care less about controlling everything.  I suppose I need to learn better ways to deal with life in general.

8 comments:

  1. I'm reading it. I like this blog because I'm pretty much at the same point as you. I'm day 28 (4 weeks today) YAY! I also have 2 kids and am a few years off 40. I need to learn how to deal with life too. Wine was so good at helping me in the short term, but it was punishing me in the long term. I like Yoga though, I want to concentrate more on Yoga and practicing calming my mind without alcohol. L

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  2. I'm glad you're here and we are doing this together. I exercise a lot but haven't really gotten into yoga. Maybe I should branch out and try it!

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  3. I'm reading it too. I am in my first 30 days (again) and want to go through this process with somebody. I alternate between fantastic free and happy moods, to bitter, why me, the holidays will suck mode. We can do this!

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  4. Hi Lynne, I'm glad you are here and I like your blog. I agree, it feels better to reach out and connect with people, even anonymously. Yes, we can do this! I agree also about the mood swings. I go from wanting to shout from the mountain tops about sobriety to being overwhelmed and crying about "small" things.

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  5. That's so funny you wrote about changing moods. I was going to email Belle about this. I have been all over the place in the last week. I'm normally a pretty even person. I have been annoyed at myself for making the commitment not to drink. Happy I am not drinking, to wanting to drink, thinking it's not fair (why can't I drink like a normal person). It is hard and I guess we are just going through the process. I wish it wasn't nearly Christmas I think this time of year makes it harder. Trying to stay in the moment and not over think things is not a strong point for me. I'm glad I'm not alone doing this :)

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  6. Oh The above comment was from me, L Putting Down the Glass

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  7. Hi L! I agree with everything you just said. Especially the "not fair" part this time of year. It is going to be difficult but I think we can do it!

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  8. We can definitely do it! I have tried this before (not with Belle) just on my own. This feels much better, I made 60 days last time, so hoping I can outdo that by a fair bit this time :) L

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