Yes that's a song by Alanis Morisette, maybe you're humming it now as I am.
I'll tell you what's ironic. Being upset about something when it doesn't happen and then being upset when it does!
Here's the example:
A couple weekends ago I came home from the gym to find my husband cleaning the house (gasp!) I was immediately a hot mess. I was anxious/angry/apologetic. Not the reaction one would expect. Why, you ask? Well I am usually the one who does the cleaning, so I felt that if I had cleaned the house as I should have he would have no need to clean. Also I have a certain way of doing things and perhaps he was doing it wrong. The ironic part is usually I sulk around the house upset because no one does anything to help me!
Belle has talked about this on her blog and podcasts and it sure rings true for me. Who would want to help someone who acts like this?
On another note, here's a short clip from Dr. Phil about his decision not to drink. I love Dr. Phil and find this quite interesting.
Speaking of Dr. Phil...last week he had a guest on his show who was drinking hand sanitizer all day long to get drunk. It was quite scary and moving.
I just started the dishwasher for what seems like the 100th time in the past 5 days. It is simply amazing the amount of dishes two almost teenagers and a husband can create when they are home from work and school. Tomorrow things will be back to normal for 3 weeks and then winter break will be here and we'll start again.
In the past, any time there was a break from the normal routine of school and activities it was an excuse to drink more. Any time the dishes were piled up high in the sink I couldn't help but think of how a glass of wine would make the task so much better (which is pretty ironic because in the long run I'd lose all motivation to do anything while drinking).
I have proven to myself over the past 5 days that I CAN in fact do the dishes without wine. I can play board games without wine. I can survive a major holiday without wine. I can tell my friends and family that I no longer drink.
December will be difficult but I do feel confident in my ability to remain sober. I feel very determined as my sober momentum continues to grow slowly but surly.
Looking forward to a sober December. Who's with me?
