What Day is it?

Some of my "sobriety apps"

After I made it to 100 days it seemed much less necessary to focus so much on my day count.  I decided to leave my counting app alone and not open it.  So there it sits at 100 days to remind me of what I have accomplished so far.  Even though I have not updated the app I did count days the other day when someone asked me what day I was on, but I considered the fact that I had to actually go to the calendar and figure it out progress!  So right now I know I am somewhere between day 120-125.

Another thing that's made it easy to lose track is that I've been extra busy the past couple of weeks.  I did my taxes, refinanced my house, my father-in-law had open heart surgery (he's doing well), and I coordinated a shirt order of more that $1000 for my friend who makes shirts from my friends at the gym.

I guess the point here is that I am spending much less time thinking about drinking and much more time living life :)

~DAY 100~

It's day 100.  Woo Hoo!  I have a massage scheduled for tomorrow afternoon to celebrate!

Here is a list of the top things I've learned.

10.  It's not easy.  There are good days and bad.  Some days I feel like shouting from the mountaintops about how I love being sober and some days I feel grouchy and resentful about it.

9.  Nothing good has magically happened since I became sober.  I didn't lose 10 pounds (in fact I initially gained weight) and my marriage still has issues.  I will need to work on these things to make them better.

8.  I still don't "know" how to meditate exactly, but I love listening to Tara Brach as part of my bedtime routine.

7.  I love blogging (this was a surprise).  It's not just my own blog...but the interaction.  I am grateful to my handful of followers (you) who comment on my blog. Also, I love to read words written by someone else and feel I could have written them myself.

6.  I don't miss hangovers...enough said!

5.  Other people don't drink as much as I thought they did.  The only people who will be upset that I'm not drinking are the ones who's brains are wired similarly to mine.

4.  It seems that people who drink too much share other personality characteristics as well.  

3.  I have never regretted NOT drinking the night before.

2.  Sleep is huge.  I love going to bed sober and I love sleeping through the night!

1.  I can do this and YOU can too!

Here is a list of the top things that have been helpful.

5.  Books

• Sober is the New Black
• Mrs. D is Going Without
• Kick the Drink...Easily
• Drinking: A Love Story

4.  Blogs

• writing my own blog
• reading others blogs
• commenting on others blogs

3.  Booze Free Brigage (BFB)

• Yahoo group
• Facebook group

2.  Podcasts

• The Bubble Hour
• Belle's audios
• Tara Brach

All of the above have connected me to others, which brings me to the most important thing that has helped me through my first 100 days.

1.  Realizing that I am not alone.  There are other people just like me.

Thank YOU for being on this journey with me.  Looking forward to day 101 and beyond :)

Still Day 23

I must be in the mood for rambling today.  I feel like I have more to say on the topic of will I/won't I ever drink again.  For some reason it feels important to say "I don't know".  I might and I might not.  I don't plan to for a very long time.  I would like to get to day 100, one year, day 500.  In fact, I am going to calculate when day 100 will be.  Ok, according to my calculations, day 100 will be January 26th, 2015.  That's a good starting goal. 

Also, I mentioned a few days ago that I had told a couple of my closest friends of my sobriety (by text, casually).  We text back and forth daily and over the weekend the friend who I'd been most scared to tell made at least 6 comments which irritated me.  She flat out asked if I wanted to come over for a drink and also told me that I was no fun, getting old and that I only live once and should have some fun.  That was hard to hear for someone who is worried about getting old and being no fun!  Of course I hadn't made a big deal about becoming sober but this let me know that it was on her mind.  I mostly ignored the comments and honestly expected them but I did feel irritated.