The Dream

I had the dream last night.  Something similar happened the last time I had about a month of being sober.

I was sitting on the couch drinking a glass of white wine (which is strange because would have much preferred red, ha!)  After I had finished about half the glass I suddenly remembered that I don't drink anymore.  I freaked out, I was going to have to start again at day 1!  I asked my husband why he didn't stop me and he just gave me a puzzled look.  Thank goodness it was only a dream.

This weekend I am going to an event that has nothing to do with alcohol.  But last year some of the people I was with and I were drinking wine at this same event.  So I got a text from one of these people with of a picture of the wine she was packing for the weekend.  I feel like I am letting her down in a way by not drinking with her.  I hadn't told her yet that I'd stopped, so I told her via text and joked that I'd tell her about it over a glass of wine but that I'd drink tea.  Interestingly, she was with me over the summer when I drank again after 47 days of being sober.  She didn't pressure me or anything like that, I just decided (no one had to twist my arm) that I wanted to drink.  But not this time.  I will not be drinking this weekend!